Healing
HEALING First of all I can't help to say these things into your ears today. I know about having a helth problems lot in my own life. I've been there and know what it feels like to struggle with those issues. Back in the year of Oct 27,1999, I had a time with it and seem that road and what it netted me just as it had happened to me. I ran from an abusive husband whom was out of his mind in doing the things he was doing back then. When I found out about it devestated me so much that I had been under a heavy load of strees at that time for starters in running out of my own home simply becuase of his attitue, and doing illegal drugs at that time and I didn't want to be anywhere near Him any more, He had been making it ( cooking) this type of drugs called "Meth" and it was everywhere and he had changed very drastically and I left him to stay with a very close friend at that time. I've personally have never ever done it and I'm so very glad that just wasn't a part of my life at all. I still to this day why he would do those things. From what I understand today he still does those same things but it's gotton even worse in his own life. He treats his wife today the same as he had done me at that time. Verbally abusive and doing his drugs and running around with on her women and being in the darkness of what all that goes on with him.
Whenever I talk to people that has been my true friends that was in the church shares with me that they are glad I have a much better life today and how happy thay are for me. I'm just know that the roads that the Lord had taken down at that time is something that I'll never forget till it's time to take me home to be with him. Yes it was a hard struggles and torment in learning how to live like a person all over again. I like many a person started off like a baby learning how to crawl before I could walk and do everything like a person would normally do in day to day life. But through those pains that I had to go through believe me it just wasn't very easy for me because self didn't know how to cope at time and just sat and cried my eyes out. I have been so very thankful to had been visiting a church down where my best friend lived in oklahoma where I had ran too. The Pastors there and the congregation had come up for visits daily in my hospital room and prayed and left me healing scriptures which I still have to this day. here is that list that I had used: First " Wait patiently for the Lord. Be brave and courageous, Yes, wait patiently for the Lord." [Ps.27:14 N.L.T.]What lesson in that verse was to for me to learn how to act under pressure in temtations in the the midst of pressures. For Fod wanted me me to know that he's my stablizing factor in my life. Apart from God there was none and I would be right back in the bondage. In waiting on Him very ptaiently at times wasn't my cup of tea so to speak but the more I cried out to him the more it came deep with in me during that time. He gave me protection all around me simply He knew His child as He was leading me on ahead to be getting me ready for the end.
The next one" The Lord is my strength, my shield, from every danger. I trust in him with all my heart. He helps me, and my heart if filled with joy. I burst out in a songs of thankgiving. [Ps.28:7]. Believe that come so quick either. I was misrable going through so many very slow changes that for a while I had to look at life very differently at the time. I wasn't happy, nor did I have any kind of song in me to be singing. So what the church did was bring me songs of joy and a tape recorder and had me sing songs in my room, at the hospital with song sheets mind you as well. I leaned brand new songs while being in there. It was a start and a very good one to say the least. They came up there praying and singing with me as they poured oil over my head with healing songs a playing in my hospital room. they had been given me strenth to make it through in the Lord and seeing it work on a daily basis. It's all I knew what to do at that time. THE NEXT SET OF SCRIPTURES: " So be strong, and take courage, all who put your hope in the Lord" [Ps.31:24]. I had to to allow God to take charge over my life in learning how to walk, in using my legs all over again as they shred with me and gave me my helpers to do just that but during that time i felt like I could never do it the way that I had been before. What it came down to was to totally commit it to the Lord everything that was inside of me in oder to win that struggle which felt like a very huge fight to me too. off and on till one final day I just gave up and that battle that was inside of me at that time if I hadn't the Lord just would of waited and watch over me till he'd have the angles guide me back to where I was suppose t be in Him but with those people counting on me in seeing me through it all. Moment by moment he watchd and cared for me as I learned to fully commit myself over in His care in devotion unto Him. Next ones:" My health may fail, and my spirit may grow weak, but God remains the strength of my heat; he is mine forever." [Ps.73:26 N.L.T.] You know when times got very rough for me in that waving river coming over the top of my boat, I was truthfully wondering if I was ever going to lay down those instruments once and for all, and never having to do it again. Guess what taken place ..it wasn't like the very next day, or that following week. No it's took more time like almost into the next year before that happened to me as I continued in Him after that release from my hospital room. Oh, how I disliked walking in sotres and malls and buying hings that I wouldn't normally have though about back before that happened to me. I would have gone and come back an then started something else and went on with my day to day life. Just like anyone else would be doing ! But this time it's wasn't the same at all! People did things very differently and they weren't very nice either to say the least. it was about 1/3 cut in half in attitudes, actions of them being eally mean to people and they didn't even care whom they were hurting just the same. They were crule in what they had said to cipple people and went on their merry ways. In those time I went outside in a cornor and just cried and prayed becuase I couldn't understand why those people were so very mean ,ugly, nasty in behaviors, attiututes in how they had spoken to me in those stores ,even the cashiers as well. All becuase I was very slow at speech and couldn't express myself like other people whom could talk in this world. So, after that my friend went with me places and had gotton after a few of those people at those stores and explained what had taken place and I had a right to sue them in harrassing me the way that they had done. But they did apologize to me in ront of my best friend. I never did take them to court for your information.I had to learn how to follow him and allow him to lead me in that right paths in order to be succful in my life in the lord and that God had truly loved me in helping though it all otherwise I would have fallen apart, his plans for me was in that right path even though it had been in troubled waters he pulled me through it all. I had learned not tobe bitter, in any dangers that I had felt,and totally not give into temptations in falling backwards in acting really crazy in hurting them when I got better once that had happened inside of my own heart... that would have been revenge on my part. That would have been my old sinful pleasure rasing up again, but had to come to realize that would have left a bitternesand then had left me very empty again, and personally I would hadn't liked that once I came to my own mind and had to think about that consequenses again. It has taken me a long time to re-learn alot about my life and seeing things like that but just couldn't even express it very well in exception for the ones closest to me in knowing me very well . In knowing my actions, and way that knowing my expressions on my face that could read me like an opened book that's what helped me during that time. next: " Keep thy heart with diligence; for out of it are the issues of life" [Prov.4:23. That warning was for me to watch it and to highly guard myself and not give into my own temptations that would lead me where I didn't want to for beside it would have been a nasty pitfall. That's what happened in ways that helps me today with that experiences that I had gone through at any given time. I still had more healing time in my speech but God gotme through it and even healed me to talk, walk, and use my right side enough to carry me through it all and for that I'm blessed for what God had done for me. catcmo2006
Whenever I talk to people that has been my true friends that was in the church shares with me that they are glad I have a much better life today and how happy thay are for me. I'm just know that the roads that the Lord had taken down at that time is something that I'll never forget till it's time to take me home to be with him. Yes it was a hard struggles and torment in learning how to live like a person all over again. I like many a person started off like a baby learning how to crawl before I could walk and do everything like a person would normally do in day to day life. But through those pains that I had to go through believe me it just wasn't very easy for me because self didn't know how to cope at time and just sat and cried my eyes out. I have been so very thankful to had been visiting a church down where my best friend lived in oklahoma where I had ran too. The Pastors there and the congregation had come up for visits daily in my hospital room and prayed and left me healing scriptures which I still have to this day. here is that list that I had used: First " Wait patiently for the Lord. Be brave and courageous, Yes, wait patiently for the Lord." [Ps.27:14 N.L.T.]What lesson in that verse was to for me to learn how to act under pressure in temtations in the the midst of pressures. For Fod wanted me me to know that he's my stablizing factor in my life. Apart from God there was none and I would be right back in the bondage. In waiting on Him very ptaiently at times wasn't my cup of tea so to speak but the more I cried out to him the more it came deep with in me during that time. He gave me protection all around me simply He knew His child as He was leading me on ahead to be getting me ready for the end. The next one" The Lord is my strength, my shield, from every danger. I trust in him with all my heart. He helps me, and my heart if filled with joy. I burst out in a songs of thankgiving. [Ps.28:7]. Believe that come so quick either. I was misrable going through so many very slow changes that for a while I had to look at life very differently at the time. I wasn't happy, nor did I have any kind of song in me to be singing. So what the church did was bring me songs of joy and a tape recorder and had me sing songs in my room, at the hospital with song sheets mind you as well. I leaned brand new songs while being in there. It was a start and a very good one to say the least. They came up there praying and singing with me as they poured oil over my head with healing songs a playing in my hospital room. they had been given me strenth to make it through in the Lord and seeing it work on a daily basis. It's all I knew what to do at that time. THE NEXT SET OF SCRIPTURES: " So be strong, and take courage, all who put your hope in the Lord" [Ps.31:24]. I had to to allow God to take charge over my life in learning how to walk, in using my legs all over again as they shred with me and gave me my helpers to do just that but during that time i felt like I could never do it the way that I had been before. What it came down to was to totally commit it to the Lord everything that was inside of me in oder to win that struggle which felt like a very huge fight to me too. off and on till one final day I just gave up and that battle that was inside of me at that time if I hadn't the Lord just would of waited and watch over me till he'd have the angles guide me back to where I was suppose t be in Him but with those people counting on me in seeing me through it all. Moment by moment he watchd and cared for me as I learned to fully commit myself over in His care in devotion unto Him. Next ones:" My health may fail, and my spirit may grow weak, but God remains the strength of my heat; he is mine forever." [Ps.73:26 N.L.T.] You know when times got very rough for me in that waving river coming over the top of my boat, I was truthfully wondering if I was ever going to lay down those instruments once and for all, and never having to do it again. Guess what taken place ..it wasn't like the very next day, or that following week. No it's took more time like almost into the next year before that happened to me as I continued in Him after that release from my hospital room. Oh, how I disliked walking in sotres and malls and buying hings that I wouldn't normally have though about back before that happened to me. I would have gone and come back an then started something else and went on with my day to day life. Just like anyone else would be doing ! But this time it's wasn't the same at all! People did things very differently and they weren't very nice either to say the least. it was about 1/3 cut in half in attitudes, actions of them being eally mean to people and they didn't even care whom they were hurting just the same. They were crule in what they had said to cipple people and went on their merry ways. In those time I went outside in a cornor and just cried and prayed becuase I couldn't understand why those people were so very mean ,ugly, nasty in behaviors, attiututes in how they had spoken to me in those stores ,even the cashiers as well. All becuase I was very slow at speech and couldn't express myself like other people whom could talk in this world. So, after that my friend went with me places and had gotton after a few of those people at those stores and explained what had taken place and I had a right to sue them in harrassing me the way that they had done. But they did apologize to me in ront of my best friend. I never did take them to court for your information.I had to learn how to follow him and allow him to lead me in that right paths in order to be succful in my life in the lord and that God had truly loved me in helping though it all otherwise I would have fallen apart, his plans for me was in that right path even though it had been in troubled waters he pulled me through it all. I had learned not tobe bitter, in any dangers that I had felt,and totally not give into temptations in falling backwards in acting really crazy in hurting them when I got better once that had happened inside of my own heart... that would have been revenge on my part. That would have been my old sinful pleasure rasing up again, but had to come to realize that would have left a bitternesand then had left me very empty again, and personally I would hadn't liked that once I came to my own mind and had to think about that consequenses again. It has taken me a long time to re-learn alot about my life and seeing things like that but just couldn't even express it very well in exception for the ones closest to me in knowing me very well . In knowing my actions, and way that knowing my expressions on my face that could read me like an opened book that's what helped me during that time. next: " Keep thy heart with diligence; for out of it are the issues of life" [Prov.4:23. That warning was for me to watch it and to highly guard myself and not give into my own temptations that would lead me where I didn't want to for beside it would have been a nasty pitfall. That's what happened in ways that helps me today with that experiences that I had gone through at any given time. I still had more healing time in my speech but God gotme through it and even healed me to talk, walk, and use my right side enough to carry me through it all and for that I'm blessed for what God had done for me. catcmo2006
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